Lost my "Muchness"

Alice asks The Hatter what is "muchness?"

I suppose it is who you are and why you are. Lately I have been wondering that about myself.
Have we been defined by what the world or other people tell us. Been told what to do, where to go, and what to be?
When do we decide to against everything we have been told and find our "muchness?"

Here is a good example. How many people would redefine their lives like this?
http://vitality.yahoo.com/video-second-act-lisa-fisco-20332366

Brain shutdown....

Yes that is what has happened. Why? Maybe it is too much work and stress. maybe it is the stupid people in my life that I let get to me. Kinda feel like someone owes me for peeing on my rug....

What do we do to recharge ourselves? Escape into a bottle, a woman or man's arms, massage at Madame Kame's Palace, or something deeper...

We have to take the time to look at things and sort them out. You might not need to go and do Transcendental Meditation, but take the time to just stop and be quiet. Some find this tough to do and it is.
Our lives are hectic, busy, and filled with a lot of mindless time wasting. Hobbies are great to get that escape and clear ones head, just ask a guy that likes to fish. More than likely they do it to relax.

I have recently decided to start painting and drawing again. Something about it just lets me be free. My mind goes someplace else and lets me heal. I have learned though it is best to just let it flow. Who really cares what you do? Paint a nekkid chick green....splash some color on a canvas ad call it a wave...

Anyway Dudes and Dudettes...let go, let the mind wander....

Friends and family...

I watched "Up in the Air" No not because Clooney is hot...no homo but he is. It was a great movie. Not to give anything away but it hit me....We may never have that "one true realtionship" but we have others.

Family...For most of us our family knows us the best. They shaped our lives and influenced who we are today. Family helped turned us from drooling pooping infants into drooling pooping adults that can clean up after ourselves. Even if we don't have a great relationship with family they are still family. We tolerate thaem and wish them well. If it's bad we still have the oppurtunity to forgive and make amends. For the most part family is there when you need them. hopefully you are there when they need you. They will see you at your worst and be there for your best.

You can't choose your family but ou can pick your friends. They are kinda like boogers, some are worth keeping around till they are crusty. True friends help you move and dispose of bodies...these are the friends that will have your back even if you started the fight. The good friends will also hang around when the doo-doo hits the fan. A good friend knows how to motivate and encourage you, but they wil also call you on your BS.

Friends and family should aks for nothing in return. They do what they do out of love and respect for you as a person. But I ask can you do the same in return?